COMMERCIAL BREAK: VAMPIRE SUSHI DISTRO

i don't know if you were aware but i make zines and stuff and you can buy them from the little zine distro i run by the name of VAMPIRE SUSHI. they're mostly £2 each (+ postage, please don't forget the postage..)
i also sell a bunch of other zines there, and even some badges and patches and even a cassette tape of the copy scams! here's some of the latest additions to the catalogue:





VAMPIRE SUSHI DISTRO

in other news: i might write an actual real life blog entry some time soon, we'll see.

AUNT FLO IS IN TOWN

Aunt Flo is in Town, originally uploaded by Michael Zampelli.

my favourite thing i found on the internet. that is the BEST EVER derby name + number, don't you agree? apparently she also tosses free tampons to fans. love it.

i had my first derby practice today with my very own skates. not bad, not bad. did blocking and checking (whacking people with your shoulder to knock em out. AWESOME. me and hannah really went for it, i think we might both be pretty fucking bruised up in a few days. being gentle was just no fun) and i did only 19 3/4 laps in five minutes which is down from last weeks 20. poo. but i managed to master cross overs going counter clockwise without even trying! so it's swings and roundabouts.

what else? i've been feeling a little low this weekend, even friday when i had a much appreciated DAY OFF. too much crying and shit. poo at that. but i feel much better today. i had derby and got to get off some aggro / pent up energy, i guess. in other news, i'm pretty close to being finished with your pretty face is going to hell #13, it should be printed the weekend after next (i'm going to london to see an LRG bout on saturday so i won't be able to print it this week.) and i will be printing / finishing off the vampire sushi comp in the next few days, printing after work. EVERY SINGLE VAMPIRE SUSHI ORDER IN THE MONTH OF OCTOBER WILL RECEIVE A FREE COPY OF VAMPIRE SUSHI #1, just so you know.. it's a good month to order something! oh and i finally put together some grab bags from the pruning of my zine collection. 10 zines per bag, and this is the best of the bunch. more info on the vampire sushi tumblr.

i think i'm gonna go work on the zine and watch x factor while doing so. i think carl will be home from oxfam soon.

OH HAI INTERNETS

Untitled, originally uploaded by Laurence 2.

our computer decided to die temporarily yesterday. it's done it before so we know how to fix it but it's probably gonna take a few days. doubt i'll get to see true blood until next week now! that is actually my main woe. & distro stuff. especially since i got a load of new ones in the post today! well, re-stocking old favourites. oh well. i was feeling a little restless yesterday. but luckily we did a very bargainlicious shopping trip to tescos and got almost enough food for the rest of the week, well at least a couple of days, for £9, including two fancy finest pizzas that should have been £9 all together. nom nom. had one of those last night. tonight i'll make some risotto with chicken, peas & parma ham.

i guess in a way computer death has so far been productive. i scribbled 6 pages of #12 in my notebook and loads all over a sheet i'd printed off the computer on sunday with the little i had managed to type in the last too months. getting there now. i'm gonna ring mama on the way to tesco, ask her to send me some childhood photos and stuffs.

so yeah. don't you worry if you don't hear from me for a while. its just a little bit of temporary computer death. though knowing how things usually go, i'll probs be back on tomorrow or later tonight cos carl's found the special different operating system disc (it's really windows that's dead, not the computer..) & carl posted a bunch of vampire sushi orders today. can't remember which ones i gave him. i think it was all but one or something along those lines..

ps. i love this lady's photos. they are so gorgeous & delicious.

MISERY BUSINESS

i feel like such a bad distro mistress (ha) lately. i am so behind on distro post. i think it's been already a month since i went to the post office (actually, three weeks) my excuses feel feeble; it's been too hot to cope with outside properly when i've had a day off, carl's been working full time in london so i haven't been able to send him to the post office, blah blah blah. i'm going tomorrow. even though it's apparently going to be even fucking hotter than before, and i also need to go to the printers, which i am REALLY not looking forward to. their large windows face the sun, uninterrupted and the copier i use is right by them. the place is fucking boiling, even when it's otherwise freezing, as long as it's sunny. i am so going to melt in there. but it has to be done. i've run out of YOUR PRETTY #10. and probably some other issues too, i really need to check.

i've been feeling a little low anyway. actually, since wednesday, really fucking low. i've sort of not taken my meds since my birthday. i ran out and i've been to useless to go to boots to get my prescription, and the last couple of days, i've also been to skint. yaye. the combo of unmedicated anxious madness and worrying about fucking money, always good. i've been trying to cheer myself up by buying things on the internet (i had money in my/our paypal, it's not the same/real money) hopefully some of it will turn up tomorrow. i think it might just work, once my stuff turns up. i need to write letters, and #11, and stories. i just keep re-writing the bit i scribbled on a piece of scrap paper at work on tuesday. sigh.

CALLS FOR SUBMISSIONS; dear friend

Penpal letters for Akiko - SENT, originally uploaded by Cuppii-cake.

VIA; HANNAH (NOT LONELY ZINE)

I am looking for submissions of articles on the theme of penpalling. Some ideas might be:

- How you got into penpalling
- Things you love (or don't love!) about penpalling
- Meeting penpals, especially if it went particularly well (or badly)
- Any significant friendships/relationships you've developed as a result of penpalling

It could be written as an article, or as a letter to someone (perhaps a letter to a long lost penpal, or to
someone who has become very close to you, or to a now ex-penpal you fell out with).

There is no minimum or maximum length for submissions, although I will reserve the right to edit submissions (I don't imagine this will be significant editing - just spelling corrections and suchlike if needed). I also reserve the right to turn down submissions - I don't imagine it is likely I will, but I don't want to vow to include everything in case I have to default on that promise.

There is no deadline - the zine will be put together once I have enough submissions to fill 40 A6 (1/4 size) pages. If I am lucky enough to recieve more submissions than I have space for, then I will produce several issues of the zine.

Everyone who has a submission included in the zine will receive a free copy of the zine.

Please email submissions to not_lonely_zine @ yahoo.co.uk (without the spaces),along with the name and any contact info you want put in alongside your article (it's okay if you want it to be anonymous). I did consider taking complete page submissions, but as there are paper size differences between Europe and other countries, and I love putting together layouts, I decided it would be better/easier to take submissions by email only.

The working title of the zine is "Dear Friend".

NOTHING.

Pull., originally uploaded by frankie DARLING.

i know it was only just re-opened & updated big & good, but i've just temporarily closed vampire sushi. for the weekend at least. there's stuff i need to catch up on and i just don't have the time right now. a little break. getting ready to go to carl's house. i've got flowers. a new dress. another pair of the same shoes, black flowered shoes. i should eat something. nothing here but chips and dirty dishes. so i'm watching skins on 4oD instead?

CAMERA Q'S.

polaroid 420, originally uploaded by helloamber.

my parent's are buying me a new camera for my birthday. a little pocket one i can fit in my nan handbag, so i can be snappy and take more pictures off fun and stuff like that when digging out a massive dslr from the bottom of my bag is just.. bloody awkward. apparently they're either buying me an olympus T-100 or sony cybershot DSC-S2000. i'm somewhat leaning towards the olympus , because has a rechargeable battery, and the cybershot takes AA's. and it seems like you can sort of fiddle around with exposure yourself. has anyone got either of these, any opinions, recommendation, experience, blah blah blah. please?

THAT GIRL SHOULD HAVE BEEN A MANSION.

101/365, originally uploaded by milk & kisses.

a few things in list form because i'm lazy and should go to bed:

+ i'm loving the new kate nash album, especially 'mansion song' and the hidden track at the end of 'i hate seagulls'. and everytime do wah do is played on the radio is kind of the highlight of my day. i just really like the riff in the beginning. it's simply delicious.

+ i feel better now that i've sort of sorted a bunch of distro orders and done a stock check. bunch of stuff's sold out though, and a bunch of orders are actually for stuff that's sold out. again.

+ i've been eating a lot of pasta salad (pasta, pesto, cherry tomatoes, two types of olives + parmesan) best evs lazy dinner / lunch. i think i'll be more or less eating that all week during my lunches. it's so nom.

+ order of the phoenix always gets me down because it's so extra woetastic. i'm being a bit extra everything at the moment, but i'm trying new strategies of coping. some inspired by not lonely #2 and some by my therapy homework.

+ i've started wearing my hair in bunches. except at work, can't be bothered with sarky comments about anything else. i should buy some ribbon to go accessorize with.

STUFF OTHER PEOPLE ARE UP TO/calls for submissions etc.

originally uploaded by frl.zucker.

“I Knew a Motherfucker Like You and She Said…” #3

– CALL FOR SUBMISSIONS

It’s that time again grrrls! I am looking for submissions for the third issue of “I Knew a Motherfucker Like You and She Said…” It’s a compilation zine of writing by grrrls, edited by me (Clementine Cannibal). The theme of the zine is uncensored honesty on topics that we feel we are expected to be silent about. I want the real shit. There are so many things that grrrls are not allowed to say or ask or express. We aren’t allowed to talk about our bodies, histories, sexualities, even our opinions without scorn, violence or humiliation. Grrrls get told to shut up. We get told that we’re stupid, that we aren’t good enough. We are told that we are gross and ugly and should feel ashamed. This is a zine where we refute that, where we express what it’s like to live with that shit put on us, where we make room for each other and listen to each other. It’s not about judging each other, it’s not about being perfect, it’s not about being right, it’s not about silencing each other. It’s about listening to each other, and finding the courage to speak, to say the things you really need to say. We are listening. You can be as bitchy and fucked up as you want. You don’t have to spell shit right. You can rant and rave or write a story. You can bitch about bad lovers. You can tell your deepest secrets. You can tell the truth, how you feel, who you are. You can use a fake name if you want, or pimp your shit off in the zine. You can say shit in this zine that you might feel uncomfortable or scared saying in other places, because we got your back, and we are putting ourselves out there too. This is a girlVIRUS production and it is dedicated to the empowerment of all grrrls.

topics might include: rocknroll, punkrock, music in general, sex, pleasure, relationships, violence, sexual violence, drug or alcohol use or abuse, masturbation, ambition, partying, anger, feelings about your body, ways to "riot" or fight back, feelings of grrrl solidarity or feelings of alienation, experiences of humiliation or being "made an example of", things that really matter to you, things that piss you off, experiences with your period, learning about sex: the things you wish you'd known back then, experiences with stds, birth control, reproductive choice, abortion: medical and/or "natural", experiences with work, dealing with grrrl jobs such as retail, service jobs, sex work of various kinds, or trying to "make it" in male dominated jobs or neither or both, mental "health" or "unhealth", or "gofuckyourself i AM healthy", experience with psychwards and that whole psych world, being called or considered crazy/hysterical/emotional/fucked up, living in a world that promotes girlhate, sexual harassment, pedophelia, experiences with body hair removal (shaving, waxing, whatever) or not removing body hair, times when people threatened you or fucked with you and how you felt and so on.

Send submissions or questions to lickingstarsoffceilings@hotmail.com

for more info:
http://sites.google.com/site/clementinecannibal/iknewamotherfuckerlikeyouandshesaid

order issue 1 or 2 here:
http://sites.google.com/site/clementinecannibal/zines

please pass this on to your grrrlfriends!

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CALL FOR SUBMISSIONS, FIST FIGHT ZINE

fist fight is a zine about girls and every day fights, from physical confrontations at shows, to the fight for autonomy with medical professionals, or the fight against advertising to be body posi. it’s about girl gangs, and strong/weird female friendships.

It’s about feeling positive and strong. It’s about being inspired by other women on days when we’ve been feeling overwhelmed or defeated.

we want your contributions! we’re interested in your personal writing/essays/comics/art.

when you’re submitting, think about: whether it fits the theme and feel of fist fight (if you think it does, you’re probably right), whether you want to lay it out on the page or if you’re happy for us to do that, and a title.

you should also send a short (like 50 words or less) blurby bio-y type thing. totally mention your own projects so people can find you.

if you want more info, or want to check if what you you’re making fits the theme you can contact me here, or email rina.anxiety@gmail.com

DEADLINE FOR SUBMISSIONS IS 10TH MAY, 2010!

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Urgent abortion support appeal: help a teenage girl in Northern Ireland.

Whether it’s a shortage of mange tout at the supermarket or a friend stranded abroad, we’ve all been affected by the cloud of ash from Iceland. But imagine if you had only a few weeks to navigate your way to England for a safe and legal abortion.

This week, we’ve heard from a number of women who were due to have travel to the UK this week for terminations, including a very young teen who is extremely close to the 24 week time limit for abortions in the UK. She had to miss her appointment earlier this week and is now coming next week by ferry and train – a roundtrip journey of more than 24 hours. Her mother solely supports her and her siblings with a part time job and now has to cover costs of £2,300 (procedure + money lost on cancelled flights + last minute ferry and train tickets).

Due to these extraordinary and extremely difficult circumstances, ASN has made a pledge to fund this young woman £500, much more than we usually commit to a single case. This is less than half of the costs she is facing. We would like to help more. If you would like to help cover more costs for her and women like her, please pledge to make a donation today.

You can do this by donating via PayPal (http://www.abortionsupport.org.uk/donate/), writing a cheque (email info@abortionsupport.org.uk for our postal address), or by making an online transfer (HSBC/Abortion Support Network/Sort Code: 40-11-18/Account Number: 64409302).

Please mark the donation “Iceland”.

Thank you in advance for any amount you can give – your donation will make a real difference to this family or to one of the other women who have had to re-purchase tickets to travel to England.

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i felt somewhat weird about reblogging about abortion support fun on tumblr five minutes after gushing about ola salo becoming a dad. like that time i giggled about finally 'yawn raping' carl, and then reblogging serious stuff about real rape. i'm a strange little girl, living in a strange little world.

in other news; i just pre-ordered my copy of in full regalia (squee face!!!) tomorrow is a boss free day at work yayeyeyeyeey, i failed to take in my signed electroral registration form to the council in time, which means i can't vote in may (poo. i actually really wanted to! go the usual tukru fail.) i'm trying to decide what dj name to use (i like kissakerho, what do you think) and i'm more than half way done with your pretty face is going straight to hell #10. actually, i know exactly what's going in it, i just need to finish writing all of it, and make it pretty on paper. i manage to scribble about 700 words about something on postit notes at work yesterday while pretending to you know, work.

PRETTY GIRLS BREAK BONES.

Disco Biblioteca Bates, originally uploaded by Dirty Boots Samantha.

incase anyone wants to listen to that playlist again and stuff, you can download it here: part 1, part 2, part 3. that's all i really wanted to say today, & attached it to a pretty picture i didn't take.

i'm gonna go watch heston's fairytale feast now and then work on #10. cos i really should, i've done fuck all about it for over a week. it's getting along though! i'm excited about being in double digits.

BEDTIME STORIES.

5 am, originally uploaded by Laurence 2.

i forgot to set my alarm last night. 'luckily' i woke up and rolled over & looked at the time at 8.59am, when i usually get up if i manage. of course i couldn't get up rightaway, it's just not possible, but i was at work on time and all. i've already set my alarm for the morning. i did it when i got home. tomorrow i finish at 3pm. yaye. i've got pizza in the oven for my lunch. i've watched three hours of twin peaks again. maybe i should eventually have a day off. still somewhat freaked out by the end of the last one i watched. not surprised, just creeped out. screaming girls aren't exactly the best mental image to have just before bed.

i was trying to think of my playlist for girl germs on the 10th afterwards but i'm suddenly drawing blank again. boo. i've been writing a letter during lunch. tomorrow's lunch is only fifteen minutes though so it will be straight up eat & smoke & go affair. i think i'll take the grape soda the boys brought me the other day with me. i've got pizza in the oven that will be my lunch.

i've got plans to make an epic fascinator to this tutorial. but i'm still looking for toys to make it epic/special. i'm somewhat tempted to put luna and her thestral on top of my head but i think that might be a bit.. big. and overly epic. if there is such a thing.

but now it is time for bed.

FIRE WALK WITH ME

Tweed's Twin Peaks Cafe, originally uploaded by Here On the Road.

12 pages of issue ten done done. slowly writing more while watching twin peaks for the first time. i think i have developed a bit of a problem. (like people have heroin problems) in the past two days i have watched five and a bit hours of twin peaks. i'm just about to start on episode seven.. i stayed up til half twelve last night watching it. luckily i ran out, i would have stayed up later, i'm sure. and i couldn't actually go to sleep. i just laid there for ages, and then suddenly fell asleep with the ipod playing music instead of harry potter and when i woke up in the middle of the night it was still playing art brut. or was it when i was rudely awaken by my alarm at 7.45? not sure. i am hardly actually woken up by my alarm, i usually wake up randomly around six and just lie there and listen to harry potter (sometimes fall asleep again briefly) until i just have to drag myself out of bed.

i was quite cheerful at work today. perhaps it was the knowledge i won't be spending that much time there this week. extra long weekend, what with easter. what good will i be there on friday since there will be no post collected? nada. and i think they're actually closed monday. they're never closed. and on wednesday i'm finishing early, at three, because i have some holiday hours still left that need to be spent by the end of the month or i'll lose them and by god i will fucking spend my holiday. when i explain or mention this to other people, they say things like 'oh i have X hours left too, i'll lose them', i don't know what they're expecting me to do. go "oh. i shan't use up my holiday since you have so much left"? what is the whole my life suxx more than your life competition all about? i am not allowed to say anything negative about my life because someone else has it worse? there is always someone who has it worse, and we do not need to make it into a competition. i am also tired of being talked to like me having time off is a favour they're doing to me. oh please, i have earned it. i am entitled to it by law. i'm doing a favour to you by coming in and putting up with your bullshit and doing a good job. fuck you.

anyway. one more twin peaks and then i'm off to bed. i've hardly done anything else today. been to work. made dinner & eaten it. watched enders with carl and then watch twin peaks. and written maybe a hundred words. it's a slow process. i wish i could finish season one. but i should really go to bed after the next one. well see how that goes. at least i'm already in my jammies. ready to go straight to bed, whatever happens.

poetic justice will come in town

Alright, But not quite, originally uploaded by LukePersonified.

i got some more new zines for the distro the other day. i'll probably be updating the website properly at the weekend or something. try to catch up on descriptions. oops.

for some reason i haven't got anything else to say. i've got letters to finish and carl ate my almond croissant this morning. boo.

"THE MASSES ARE ASSES" L7

SHE LOOKS GOOD BUT HER BOYFRIEND SAYS SHE'S A MESS.

just got home from london and zine & grrrl fun. i'll write about that later (or not, i might save it for zines!) but in the meantime, since its the day for lovvers, i made an all (but one song..) grrrl anti valentine mix (some of it was played last night, and i loved seeing people go mental to miley cyrus, and the gaga) & i thought i'd share it cos i think it's BLOODY BRILLIANT. (i usually re-tag all the songs into a mix when i make a mix but today i just couldn't be arsed. you can put them in the right order yourself, you're a clever bunch! and i included the tracklisting in a txt file in the zip. just in case)

1. girl’s night out - the knife
2. telephone (featuring beyonce) - lady gaga
3. girls just wanna have fun - miley cyrus
4. the show - girls aloud
5. saturday night - surferosa
6. ladykillers - lush
7. stutter - elastica
8. like a lady - the sounds
9. just a girl - no doubt
10. love me or hate me - lady sovereign
11. search and destroy - peaches
12. joku raja - pmmp
13. nightmare - the whyte boots
14. love und romance - the slits
15. white mice - the mo-dettes
16. get rid of him - bernadette castro
17. atta girl - heavenly
18. don’t wanna hold your hand - thee headcoatees
19. your kisses are wasted on me - the pipettes
20. you don’t own me - joan jett & the blackhearts
21. johnny, are you queer? - glass candy & the shattered theatre
22. electric chair twist - the micragirls
23. our daughters will never be free - the indelicates
24. girls don’t always wanna have fun - melody club

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by the way, that’s the valentine’s day card i got for carl. i saw it at the alternative press fair, and i just had to. it’s by scribblehound. carl should be home in a bit & we'll have a cuddle and then reggae reggae chicken + rice & peas for dinner and go see carl's dad in the hospital. i expect we'll watch a film & eat ice cream (i got a tub of toffee & almond ice cream for 75p from tesco! the other flavour tubs the same size were £2.99. what a bargain, and it wasn't even reduced cos it was going off, or on sale. weeeird) when we get home. i had fun, but it's nice to be home. and i hated london surprisingly little during the trip. just when twats in camden kept walking into me. like proper. this happens all the time. surely i'm not invisible?

i haven't been this excited for such a long time, it feels fucking brilliant!

"dance in the dark" lady gaga

MISCHIEF UNMANAGED.

Gilley Bird - 217/365 ADAD, originally uploaded by Shannon Taylor.

i feel a little crappy tonight. i think it's cos i'm sort of freaking out about this weekend 's zine fun and how unprepared i am for it, as usual. and how incredibly unprepared i am for valentine's day AND carl's birthday (carl was born feb 15th, the basterd) i feel so useless and meh. must move from my stupid seat. get cards & flyers ready if nothing else.

i really want to be excited, and not scared. fuck being scared. i want to be excited and make a riot grrrl revival happen and do stuff and make things happen and.. fuck. i'm making absolutely no sense. i want to have grrrl friends near by. we went to abbi & alex's house for dinner last friday and there was guitar playing (by everyone else) and staring at the piano trying to remember how to play something more than ukko nooa and the main riff from just can't get enough by depeche mode and thus feeling musically challenged (just me) and i said to abbi "we should start a riot grrrl band." i was serious. i don't think she took me seriously. i went home with another book from their bookself ("american gods" by neil gaiman. i always borrow a book from them after dinner. it's standard.

i'm extra weirded out by my grump cos i actually had quite a nice day at work. though i seem to be extra paranoid of people not liking me. stupid girl. stupid brain.

i really hope there's something awesome and suitable for valentine's day or birthday present for carl at alternative press fair on saturday. it's very unlikely i can take shopping on oxford street (or anywhere) on sunday on my way home, while carrying bags of zines. and well, i've run out of time. i've got tomorrow lunch break. and THAT'S IT. i hate presents. why are boys so difficult to get presents for? i wish i had a girlfriend and i could just empty claire's or heidi seeker. boo, boo, superboo!

i finally bought a coach ticket for next week's trip to brighton yesterday. going friday early afternoon and leaving saturday night.

this blog entry makes zero sense. it's just word vomit. i've been listening to lady gaga almost non stop since last night. i finally fouled carl's ipod with the fame and the fame monster. i'm sure carl will want to strangle me the first time she pops up on shuffle songs. he's a lame hater.

MOTHER KNOWS BEST

morning, originally uploaded by Laurence 2.

today is very very strange day. i'm going to go read more zines (descriptions like woah! that's what i did last night too..) and perhaps make a phone call to a friend because i heard big big news and i want to talk about it! i want to knit things and write zines and do antyhing but this internets bullshit. i'll get back to it later this week.

A FEW THINGS;

0201, originally uploaded by emiliebjork.

♥ work's been mental but alright. i'm still surprised by that. i think the short days due to snow are helping.

♥ my stapler has gone missing. which is no good! i've been somewhat looking for another one, thinking "it might be a good idea to have two, just in case" but everything's either too much or a bit too shit. i'm rather contemplating getting this one..

♥ i'm excepting several largeish packages of zines in the post! two distro trades and one order. i may have gone a little wrong there. also, i heard really sad news today. one of my favourite distros (if not my actual favourite) learning to leave a paper trail is closing. it's a sad sad day. ciara's still gonna keep the distro open, until everything's sold out which probably will take a while cos she's got a fuckload of zines, including another forty odd copies of mine that she only just received couple of weeks ago. i'll most probably be buying a bunch of zines in bulk for vampire sushi, because most the zines are fucking awesome. there are very few zines i've got from there that i haven't liked much. and i must confess, i've probably got about half the catalog if not more. but i'm gonna wait til the latest distro trade from her arrives. hopefully next week. so yeah, that news really sucks. but nothing lasts forever.

♥ for the last few days i've been mostly listening to lady gaga (i'm starting to think i'll never be sick of 'bad romance' or 'paparazzi'. rah rah ah-ah-ah ro mah ro-mah-mah gaga ooh-la-la) and lady sovereign. alongside with a little bit of ladyhawke and falling asleep to harry potter and the deathly hallows again.

♥ the snow is making me giddy and silly. even when i almost fall over skipping down the high street.

♥ i think this weekend i'm going to make cheese pie, as seen on hairy bikers; mums know best. it's basically mash, cheese, mash, cheese, mash, cheese baked in the oven. it looked fucking epic.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS / TO DO LIST + WISH LIST

I missed the party, originally uploaded by Laurence 2.

yesterday i wrote down some new years 'resolutions' in my finnish blog, somehow finnish has just felt more natural this year, so far. ha. we'll see how long that lasts though, i'm always starting similar projects and it never lasts.. but i'm hopeful. i need more practice so i don't turn double foreign. anyway, i thought i'd write them down in english too, so everyone can mock me when i miserably fail at everything. i don't really do resolutions. but i'll consider this more of a to do list. (i do realise it's basically the same thing, but a few of these have been on my to do list anyway..)

♥ write more in finnish
♥ write more in general
♥ spend less time on the internet doing fuck all
♥ eat less frozen crap and more PROPER food.
♥ stop ignoring stuff and pushing it til later. or at least do it less.
♥ worry less.
♥ be more crafty, knit and stuff.
♥ work on my teenage blah blah novel & my smiths fan vampire story.
♥ make a fucking brilliant queer/typical zinester stuff issue of YOUR PRETTY FACE without rushing it. if it's not ready in time for a zinefest, it's not.
♥ same thing with rocknroll adventures of past times issue.
♥ finish issue one of THE QUEEN IS FED, my cooking zine. preferably in time for brighton zine fest (end of february)
♥ dress better (when i look good, i feel better. like today. i may be a bit chilly, but i feel better about myself. it's funny that.)
♥ see people more often. go to coffees or just to hang out at lovely people's houses.
♥ make more art. take PROPER photographs.
♥ get winifred's hair sorted out! (i actually only just added this one..)
♥ be more / proper organized with distro etc business stuff.
♥ find another job. preferably not in retail. i don't want to hate christmas anymore.
♥ have better mental health
♥ be a better girlfriend and be more comfortable with my own sexuality.

i'm not going to write stop smoking because it's pointless. more accurate list item would be "stop needing to smoke". which is way more easily said than done.

also, here's things i would like to do, if possible:

♥ start sewing clothes for me & dolls, once i get that elusive sewing machine.
♥ go abroad. preferably not just back home to finland. maybe berlin? but this completely depends on money money money!
♥ FIND A RECORD PLAYER. our record collection is getting ridiculous considering we can't actually listen to them.
♥ a dead ladies comeback for my birthday. in celebration of surviving 'the rocknroll stupid year'.
♥ do a zine workshop of some sort. i wouldn't know where the fuck to start sorting it out though.

THE GIRL GANG ARCHIVE

MORE INFO HERE.

i'm working on my page, though unfortunately i've temporarily lost the ability to draw. 10 brownie points to whoever can guess who my FFRM is!

BAD WEEK.

Living Dolls Part One, originally uploaded by Laurence,.

i’ve had a rather bad week. too much work. too much stress and emotional upheaval, this fucking cold and this fucking cough (i can’t even have a fucking fag to calm the fuck down) i’ve been a cranky miserable little bitch, but i’m going to be nicer now. i’ve got a fuckload of unread things on my google reader (maybe i should just unfollow some blogs..) and i’m so behind on distro & etsy orders. one day i will be organized, but i doubt it will be until after christmas. i’m sorry. i fail at everything. everyone who's been waiting for their orders forever will get an extra present as an apology.

i’m going to go shopping a little later, get my dad a present. we were going to post it all today but obvs that’s not going to happen. carl said i should go tomorrow but i don’t want to, sunday is my day and i don’t want to even think about leaving the house tomorrow. and we've been fighting too. i hate this week, i wish it was christmas already.

i wish there was a website you can check yesterday’s weather on so you can actually tell what today’s forecast means. fuck if i know what 8 celcius feels like. i want to wear the blue vintage dress i got from zara at the swap party, but i think it's probably way too cold for anything that pretty for at least a couple of months. which fucking sucks. i feel so disgusting and ugly lately that it's not funny. a face cracked from rough tissues doesn't help the matters at all.