I'VE GOT A TIN OF HAMA BEADS AND I'M GONNA USE THEM!

+ today's post:

"tukru, are you vampire sushi something?"

doris #15 - the anti depression guide
mend my dress #5 - girl love, girl revolution, stories of friendship
tuff town #1
mend my dress #1

from RIOT GRRRRRR DISTRO

in other news, carl has abandoned me for the night. he's gone to his brother's house to do boy things (drink & watch things in HD) so i'm home alone, with celebrity big brother in the background cos feck, what else can i do? not complaining though. besides, i'm abandoning him for social shit tomorrow, going to moogie wonderland with emma, and i think he should get out of the house more often anyway. so good. and i'm going to watch the hairspray remake in a bit and get really angry cos they've ruined it, probably. thought i might as well watch something carl will definitely not watch with me. and get crafty while i do it. there's another crafty deaf cat on WEDNESDAY and i have nothing but zines! i've got two doctors appointments tomorrow (well, the first one is a general health check up, with a nurse, but still) one at 11.40 and the other one at 1.20 (apparently it takes a while to get the info from nurse to doctor) but i don't mind, i'm gonna walk to rochester for a crafty hunt in the meantime. i've got plenty of crafty ideas, me!

SOME SHIT PHOTOS / MY UNEXCITING LIFE

i put some lipstick on on sunday. i like to wear it in geisha style.



carl hasn't shave for at least two weeks (he can't actually remember when he shaved last) since he's got this far on beard growing, i might as well make him do it properly.



i did some girly shopping yesterday on my way home from work (neon leg warmers & eye shadows, all 50p each) and carl brought me barbie size beauty products from oxfam.



i made blackberry & banana muffins earlier and i accidentally baked them for extra 10 minutes and they had a sick party all over each other (i wonder if that was the fact i didn't use any bicarbonate of soda, or just cos i filled the cases too full...)

today i had therapy (on the phone) for the first time in about two months. (december and most of november were just too fucking hectic to go to lunch at a certain time and spend it on the phone thinking about how well i'm coping with shit.) apparently i've got worse since last time. from moderate to borderline moderate / severe. wahey anxiety.

i have plans and projects i manage to do fuck all about. and i had one of the best ideas i've ever had, inspired by a friend's lj post about creepy dudes. now i just need to figure out how to actually make them.

RECIPE : MAKARONI LAATIKKO

makarooni laatikko, originally uploaded by tukrulovesyou.

it's been ages since i've posted a recipe. actually i don't think i have posted one since i swapped to blogger. shocking. i made makaroni laatikko (finnish pasta casserole) last night. i've only made it once before, and it was well nom. it's a bit of a finnish mama recipe. though funnily enough i prefered the version they served at my school to my own mother's, who after all was a professional cook (she's not dead, she's just retired.) though i have learned the significant difference between them is that my mother used milk while the dinnerladies used stock. also, neither used tin tomatoes & carrots, i just wanted to add a bit extra flavour. actually this is more or less my recipe! though i did check some random finnish cooking websites for the amount of pasta, egg & stock / milk.

MAKARONI LAATIKKO
serves 3-4

250g minced beef (or lamb)
1 (perferably red) onion, finely chopped
3 cloves of garlic, finely chopped
2-3 carrots, grated
400g tin of tomatoes
dried herbs; parsley, basil & oregano
salt & pepper
150g pasta of your choice
200ml beef stock or milk
2 eggs

1. cook the pasta according to the packet, drain once cooked.
2. meanwhile brown the mince in a frying pan, in some oil if you want. once the mince is half way to fully browned, add onions & garlic and fry til softened
3. add carrots and tin tomatoes and simmer for 10-15 minutes 'til the sauce starts to thicken.
4. add a thin layer of the sauce in a lightly greased casserole dish. mix the rest of the sauce with the pasta and add in the dish.
5. beat the eggs in a cup, mix in the stock until even colour. pour the mixture over the pasta mixture in the dish. make sure it's all pretty even.
6. place in a oven preheated to 190C & cook for 30-45 minutes. check after half an hour to see if the egg mix has set. once it has and the dish is no longer watery, it is done.

serve with rocket or grated carrot salad. whatever you want!

i was going to make karelian pasties today, as i have everything you need for them already in the house, but i've got too much to do. maybe next sunday?

THEY DANCE AND THEY SING OF THE WORLD WE'RE NOT IN

new distro zines!, originally uploaded by tukrulovesyou.

this week has been a pretty good week postwise. i've had something come in at work or at home pretty much every day. except today & monday. including three parcels of distro zines. one of them MASSIVE. i had just almost got on top of the descriptions and.. now i've got another pile of them to do. oh well. that's really the only bit i'm not excited about, mainly cos i find it a bit difficult. i'm not that great at describing zines. though it seems with some its about easier than others.

i've been wanting to post a proper blog entry about distro stuff but i'm not actually quite sure what i want to say. i thought about recommending my favourites but pretty much everything in the distro are my favourites, so it would be kinda impossible and pointless. so yeah, there's lots of new zines at VAMPIRE SUSHI DISTRO. go on, buy some, so i can order more. eh. no really, i've got a few more zines i definitely want to distro, but i've decided to put myself under zine buying ban. well, actually buying anything at all ban really, my bank & paypal balances are really not happy at all.

oh and i'm gonna be tabling at a few events next month! you can see them on the news page of the distro, if you're in the medway / london / brighton area, you should come come come.

"our daughters will never be free" the indelicates.

MOTHER KNOWS BEST

morning, originally uploaded by Laurence 2.

today is very very strange day. i'm going to go read more zines (descriptions like woah! that's what i did last night too..) and perhaps make a phone call to a friend because i heard big big news and i want to talk about it! i want to knit things and write zines and do antyhing but this internets bullshit. i'll get back to it later this week.

GE MIG NÅT SOM TAR MIG NÅGONSTANS FÖR JAG VILL VETA OM KÄRLEK FINNS

incoming / outgoing mail, originally uploaded by tukrulovesyou.

above: my current reading pile. + distro zines that arrived today.. there's actually almost the same amount still in the post. oh dear. i'm never going to read all this!
below: outgoing pile. it's all definitely going out tomorrow. i was going to sneak some in the work post but apparently we're being watched by royal mail. ha. oh well. if i wanna do it, i'd have to be like, super duper sneaky. and i like having receipts (i really don't trust royal mail. if you did what i do for you dayjob, neither would you.. too much lost post.)

i've had a pretty bad / stupid / scared week, but at least it's over now (the weekend doesn't count as part of it!) i should spend less time on the internets and more time cuddling or something. oh and reading and writing. right?

"nu kan du få mig så lätt" - håkan hellström

THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY/WEEK/MONTH?

yes, i thought it deserved it's own entry instead of just editing the previous one and shoving it in the end. it's very rare you see nerds speak finnish on the telly. except maybe in finland...