THE PAIN IN MY BUM.

i've got a doctor's appointment at one on the subject of le coccyx. i feel like such a sissy* for complaining about it (or made to feel like one, whatever) but it does still hurt. to sit. to lie down, even on my belly and to stand. not massively, i can live with it. but i just don't wanna make it worse, and i need a professional to tell me, so i don't feel bad about not going to the roller derby practise tomorrow. it's only the second one though, how much do i suck? after all the introduction sheet did say something along the lines of 'if you can't commit, don't do it'. though it did also say to take a break if i need it, physically or mentally. o hai guilt. i wish i at least had a bruise to show for my injuries. my legs only stopped killing me wednesday..

i just found out that there's a helsinki roller derby team too! and a bunch of my old friends from the olden days of finnish riot grrl are on it. oh small world. and they've got a blog. i just love their logo:

it's based on havis amanda, an iconic bronze statue/fountain in kauppatori (market square) in helsinki. how ace can a logo be?

since there's no derby for me this weekend, i've decided to do my 24h zine instead. i kinda started last night, typed one page and realised i have no glue and no idea where any of my scissors are so i left it. i'll start when i get back from the doctors & glue shopping. oh and apparently some fizzy pop insence from the bong shop..

*the least misogynist/anti-female term i could think of. why is untoughness verbalised by feminine words? c'mon, women give birth and bleed monthly and all that shit. if that ain't tough, i don't know what is. i hate the english language sometimes. sigh.

CALLS FOR SUBMISSIONS; VIRGIN #2

via: virginzine

Submission Call for Virgin #2

Last year I wrote a very personal zine called Virgin.

I’ve been amazed by how ‘successful’ Virgin #1 has been and I’ve been touched by people who’ve taken the time to contact me about it and share their stories.

I’m now ready to write #2 and would love to include some submissions!

I’m hoping Virgin #2 will be half sized, so submissions can run to a few sides.

I really want this zine to be focused from the point of view of people, like myself, who haven’t lost their virginity. I’ve thought long and hard about this decision and am anxious that an inevitable divide isn’t created between those who have had sex and those who haven’t.

Please feel free to write about anything virginity related with the exception of:

- losing virginity stories

- well meaning “it’ll be alright... I didn’t lose my virginity until I was X age...”

(I’ve been slightly confused by the number of people who’ve picked up on my brief discussion about asexuality in Virgin #1 but as that’s just as infrequently talked about, I’m happy to include submissions that relate to virginity and asexuality).

It’s absolutely ok to submit anonymously! I make this whole zine anonymously!

Submission deadline: 18^th August 2010

(I know it’s really close but I really want to get it finished during my summer holidays)

Any submission will receive a free copy of the finished zine.

All submissions and questions to: virginzine@gmail.com

ROLLER DERBY, BITCHES.

this morning i went to KENT ROLLER GIRLS' first practise in herne bay with ellie, and new friends emily & veronica. it was ace. skating was a lot easier than i expected. i was so wobbly when i first got on the skates and thought there is no fucking way i can do this but within five minutes i was doing it! yaye. obviously i didn't manage to take many pictures, i was a bit busy skating. but i managed the above few while having a drink & then when everyone was getting out of their skates. but i already found some pictures on facebook. quick sharp. here's one of me on the floor after i did a seriously epic tumble on my arse;

seriously, it fucking hurt. full speed on my arse. it must have looked pretty bad cos everyone gathered round me going "you alright there?" i was. i'm walking very very gingerly though. it wasn't so bad until i got out of the car at ellie's and started walking home. also, i smacked my left hand on the floor real hard. it's got a faint bruise already starting to show (it's a hint more purple than my other hand) ouch. but that's what i get for showing off. and i did have fun. i'm just not looking forward to how much pain i'm going to be tomorrow. when all the other aches from actually doing exercise kick in. but i think i'm going to keep doing this. it was good times, hanging out with other grrrls and my favourite bit of the info sheet we got at the end is:

DON'T:
- invite friends or family to join as refs/coaches/volunteers if you think they are only in it to get a date (and don't be afraid to call them out on it, no one wants creeps in derby)

i'm obviously getting involved with the right sport. & next time i have a health check up the nurse can't give me a dirty worried look for not exercising. i was covered in sweat at the end. and there were massive dark sweat patches on the knees of my turquoise trousers. so did everyone else, but they were all wearing black leggins or whatever so mine were the only ones that showed up.

i'll write more about this in my zine.. loving the roller derby!

THINGS I GOT IN THE POST TODAY

LUCKY DIP NAME NECKLACE, FROM HEIDI SEEKER.



VAMPIRE SUSHI PSYCHO NAME NECKLACE FROM HEIDI SEEKER.

i fucking love heidi seeker necklaces. i just found my old classic Miss Tukru necklace underneath the bed the other day while desperately trying to find some of my headcase medicine there. i thought i'd seen a half empty packet there, but they were all empty. sigh. but yay return of the necklace! i hadn't seen it for about.. six months. i was doing a bit of retail therapy last week cos i was feeling low and i thought nice new things might make me feel better (or at least excited! which it has! i like shiny new things!) so i finally bought some more name necklaces. i'd been meaning to get a vampire sushi one for ages, for zine events etc. and now i have! happy days.

i also got some skull tape & address labels for me & vampire sushi from various sources. no more scribbling the address myself on the back of an envelope. lazy days!

in other news: carl's going to london again tomorrow. sigh. pizza time. what should i watch while he's away. i know i should use this quality me time in some productive way. i'm gonna try remember to go buy some wool tomorrow so i can start knitting stuff for thumper. one of my bestest dearest friends in the whole world, lori, is due in two weeks and that's what she calls the baby, thumper. i don't know if it's a boy or a girl or if they know, i don't really want to know yet, nor do i care. fuck gender binary! i'm well upset i'm not going to get to meet the baby belly (she's all the way in glasgow) i know meeting thumper should be / is more magnificent / exciting but thumper will be around for YEARS AND YEARS whereas the belly will be gone forever. no one seems to understand where i'm getting at. i've just never felt a baby kick through anyone's belly and if there was one baby i would like to feel that sensation (before i have my own belly to put up with) it was thumper. cos that baby will be the awesomest kid in the whole world, i'm sure of it. no pressure, kid. but aunty tukru expects awesomeness, with them genes.

carl's playing condemned (that exact bit actually. freaky) and it's freaking both of us out. agh.

SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO..

sorry, you were out, originally uploaded by Tukru Loves You.

THE SORTING HAT SAYS…

potter cupcakes, found via tumblr

The sorting hat says… Hufflepuff!

Gryffindor - 56
Said Gryffindor, “We’ll teach all those with brave deeds to their name.”
Students of Gryffindor are typically brave, daring, and chivalrous. Famous members include Harry, Ron, Hermione, Albus Dumbledore (head of Hogwarts), and Minerva McGonagall (head of Gryffindor).

Ravenclaw - 70
Said Ravenclaw, “We’ll teach those whose intelligence is surest.”
Ravenclaw students tend to be clever, witty, intelligent, and knowledgeable. Notable residents include Cho Chang and Padma Patil (objects of Harry and Ron’s affections), and Luna Lovegood (daughter of The Quibbler magazine’s editor).

Hufflepuff - 79
Said Hufflepuff, “I’ll teach the lot, and treat them just the same.”
Hufflepuff students are friendly, fair-minded, modest, and hard-working. A well-known member was Cedric Diggory, who represented Hogwarts in the most recent Triwizard Tournament.

Slytherin - 46
Said Slytherin, “We’ll teach just those whose ancestry is purest.”
Slytherin students are typically cunning and hungry for power. Important members include Draco Malfoy (Harry’s nemesis), Professor Severus Snape (head of Slytherin), and Lord Voldemort.

(http://www.personalitylab.org/tests/ccq_hogwarts.htm)

interesting. i recently decided / came to the conclusion i was a ravenclaw (hello luna fan girl!) but with a streak of hufflepuff. apparently it was the other way round. who knew. i’m totes cool with that though. proud to be a hufflepuff. and kaspertron will be happy to hear we share the same common room after all! i'm off to buy me a hufflepuff badge to put on my chest. more internet retail therapy.

ps. you should totally read MARK READS HARRY POTTER. he's really getting into it too! awwcakes.

CATCHING UP.

three weeks worth of distro post, originally uploaded by Tukru Loves You.