FINNISH HARRY POTTER COVERS

i personally think they're the best ones. at least i like them better than the UK ones. possibly because they are hilarious. harry's got quite an epic quiff and all! i think dolores umbridge, or pimento as she's translated, is particularly spectatular on the cover for order of the phoenix. i've decided i want to own all the books in both english and finnish. (i think i've got all but first two in english..) must ask mummy to keep an eye out for cheap copies for me.. it's hardly likely i'll find any in charity shops round medway. i wish.

PS, by the way this is my copy of harry potter and the half-blood prince:

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT

i'm drinking blueberry and pomegranate juice from my new-old ravenclaw glass. carl has the slytherin one.

that's all i have to say.

FIVE YEARS

tonight is the fifth anniversary of our first kiss. it's been a good five years ♥ i just made a mix of songs that remind me of carl & stuff.

anyone else but you the moldy peaches
our secret beat happening
adolescent song of mindless devotion the lucksmiths
give him a great big kiss the shangri-las
baby i love you the ronettes
i wanna be your boyfriend the ramones
new rose the damned
good weekend art brut
panorama surferosa
(angry kids of the world) unite tiger tunes
your love is mine holly golightly
love is like a bottle of gin the magnetic fields
love on the dole the libertines
centrumi tv-resistori
anyone else but you michael cera and ellen page

i uploaded it on 8tracks.com but for some reason it doesn't work.


"you're a part time lover and a full time friend
the monkey on you're back is the latest trend
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

i kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
i kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

here is the church and here is the steeple
we sure are cute for two ugly people
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

the pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
so why can't, you forgive me?
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

i will find my nitch in your car
with my mp3 dvd rumple-packed guitar
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

du du du du du du dudu
du du du du du du dudu
du du du du du du dudu du

up up down down left right left right b a start
just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

you are always trying to keep it real
i'm in love with how you feel
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

we both have shiny happy fits of rage
you want more fans, i want more stage
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

don quixote was a steel driving man
my name is adam i'm your biggest fan
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

squinched up your face and did a dance
you shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
i don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
but you

du du du du du du dudu
du du du du du du dudu
du du du du du du dudu du
but you"

"anyone else but you" by moldy peaches

for some reason, that pretty much sums it up for me.

ZINES AND LIBERTINE NOSTALGIA

ON YOUR PRETTY FACE #9; i feel a bit extra insecure about the new issue. i'm scared i rushed it a bit & that my half isn't as good as it could have been because i needed to finish it by the end of october so maranda could get it out and about ready for canzine. meh. actually our first deadline was end of august. i had plenty of time to finish it really but i have a stupid brain that always leaves everything to last minute. with the next one i'm not setting a deadline. though i would like to have a new one for brighton zine fest. that's at the end of february, but knowing me i won't write anything until end of january, just watch me.

i've actually got two themed issues in my mind, subjects i want to write about a bit more extensively, more so than usual. first of all, my queerness. everyone seems to have been writing queer zines. especially ladies in similar situation as me (queer in a straight relationship) so i guess in a way one could think; "do we really need another one?" but you know, everyone's different. and i feel i need to exorcise some more demons, like issue 4 but my feelings instead of people. or something. i'm still ever so confused myself, i think it might provide me some clarity. the fact that tomorrow is the five year anniversary of me and carl's first kiss may or may not have something to do with this need. (issue 4 was 'inspired' by him moving in..) the other 'theme' is the rocknroll adventures of my past. semi inspired by lizzy marchin stars' hop a plane zines. though i've been thinking i should write them down anyway. i've been reading my old ljs from adventure times and giggled & sighed at old things. the good old days, man.

if queen boadicea is long dead and gone
still then the spirit
in her children's children's children
it lives on

if you've lost your faith in love and music
oh the end won't be long
because if it's gone for you then i too may lose it
and that would be wrong

i've tried so hard to keep myself from falling
back into my bad old ways
and it chars my heart to always hear you calling
calling for the good old days
because there were no good old days
these are the good old days

it's not about, tenements and needles
and all the evils in their eyes
and the backs of their minds
daisy chains and school yard games
and a list of things we said we'd do tomorrow
a list of things we said we'd do tomorrow

the arcadian dream has all fallen through
but the albion sails on course
so lets man the decks and hoist the rigging
because the pig mans found the source
and theres twelve rude boys on the oars

in the good old...days

some words are more true now than they were then. i actually haven't heard this song for such a long time, i'd almost forgotten how it goes..

i'm somewhere in there, just off camera.. that place was fucking rammed. one of the best gigs ever. that and the other night at the duke of clarence, pure fucking magic.

i'm going to stop before this turns into something i wasn't planning. save it for that zine.

ZINESTER NEWS

i booked me and carl megabus/train tickets to southampton on saturday 21st november. we're gonna be tabling at southampton craft & zine fair. i'm excited! it probably won't be that busy or lucrative but who cares. getting out of chatham alone is a joy. also, my brother is going to arrive in london for some sort of promotional stuff cos he's got another single out of hospital records. he does drumnbass or something, not really my cup of tea but good on him. so we're probably gonna hang out with him when we get back to london until we have to get the last train back.

when i got home yesterday i noticed i had a missed call and a voicemail from my friend sara. she asked me if we wanted to take part in a little craft fair they're organizing at deaf cat cafe on 26th november. of course. again, i'm just happy to get out of the house & seeing people who don't work where i do or are not related to carl.

the distro has done ok so far. no new orders for a couple of days, but it's expected. i've gone and ordered more stock though, they should hopefully be here in time for the zine/craft events above! there's still a couple of sets of unlucky surprise presents left, so if you want some you better hurry!

in more zine related news, i received the flats for me & maranda's split zine last friday and i went to the printers terribly ill-prepared and faffed about, but eventually managed to print a big piled of zines, including old ones i'd run out of. i just put some in my etsy shop and obviously they are also available at VAMPIRE SUSHI DISTRO!

"this issue is a split with one of my favourite zinesters, maranda elizabeth of telegram ma'am. it's pretty epic, 70 pages all together! i write about my brother visiting, are birthdays happy, going to brighton, meeting long distance friends & my newly discovered depression. maranda writes about riding her bike jolene and fighting anxiety, loneliness, small town adventures negativity, zine gatherings and more!

i'm getting even worse at these descriptions.

1/4 size, 70 pages."

i'm sure there was something else but i've been distracted by this.. (i actually kinda really liked st. trinians. i didn't expect but i bloody well did. i'm sure it has nothing to do with my affinity for pretty girls in school uniforms.)

HARRY POTTER NERDING IS THE BEST THING EVER

me & frl.zucker had the best ever conversation on google chat the other day...

frl.zucker: haha ok! hows work?
        did you petrify yr boss!!!!!
        (you have to)
miss tukru:i'm alright, even work's not too bad,
        nah, i think i'd go for SECTUM SEMPRA
        ha
        or at least levi corpus
frl.zucker: why not CRUCIO if yr at it :D
miss tukru:some days, im not far from AVADA KEDAVRA
frl.zucker: hahaha! you could also transform him into a ferret!
        so he will learn his lesson
miss tukru:well, transfiguration never was one of my strongest subjects
frl.zucker: yeah it wasn't mine either... i like datda though!
miss tukru:well, it is THE BEST SUBJECT EVAR
        i miss lupin
        lupin was awesomecakes. best teacher EVAR
frl.zucker: me too... he was definitely the best dfatda teacher!
        i love that he was poor <3
miss tukru:and wolfish
frl.zucker: yeah <3
        i just hate that he dies!!!!
        it wasn't neccessary
miss tukru:me too
        i just love him so
        like srsly looove him
frl.zucker: yeah he just teached me all the good things.
miss tukru:like, stuff we actually need to know
        like how to conjure a patronus
frl.zucker: yeah! nobody ever told us that before! but its so important!
miss tukru:i'd brew him wolfsbane potion anytime
frl.zucker: oh severus... thats so nice of you!!
        but...
        i didn't know you were gay?!
miss tukru:OMG CARL JUST GOT A TEXT FROM AN UNKNOWN NUMBER AND IT SAID: "Have you been using the Petrificus Totalus spell? Because you've made me stiff ;)" we have NO idea who it's from
frl.zucker: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
        i want to get texts like taht too!
        awesome <3
miss tukru:I LAUGHED SO HARD!
        especially considering what we're talking about
        i am so posting this on my blog
frl.zucker: hahaha yeah!!! it must be OCCLUMENCY!
        haha YEAH!!!
miss tukru:& the comments in your blog too
        because it's like THE BEST THING EVER.
        fact
frl.zucker: i love that person who is always talking to random strangers as voldemort, i think its fuckyeahvoldemort?
miss tukru:yeah!
frl.zucker: YES do it!!! i love hp nerd talk so much <3
miss tukru:i think there was a few harry ones too!
frl.zucker: oh yes!! i always giggle so hard
        i love how the strangers always disconnect too :D
miss tukru:L. O. L
        i enjoyed the one that actually went "OMG r u voldemort?"
frl.zucker: you know what sucks though, hp isn't half as big here in germany as it should be, and as it is in the uk/us. IT SUCKSSSS!!! nobody ever knows what i'm talking about! i hate it!
        HAHAHA yeah that was so great!
miss tukru:oh boo
        wouldnt it be superawesomebestevar if we had our apparating licenses?
frl.zucker: oh yes!!! i so need to practice more
miss tukru:i keep being all scatty and failing cos i keep ending up outside 12 grimauld place instead of outside the hogshead
        oops!
frl.zucker: i once apparated on the head of this old lady in hogsmeade!
        i think she didn't really like it
        hm
miss tukru:i dont think she was expecting it
        ruddy learners
frl.zucker: fucking twicross totally let me fail the test only beacuse of a FUCKEN eyebrow
        WTF!?!?!
miss tukru:totes unfiar
frl.zucker: ps. i would have totally been yr halloween date!! nobody here wanted to go either :(
        it could have been SO GREAT dressing up as hp characters
        boo
miss tukru:our surroundings suck ass
frl.zucker: YEAH!
        nobody appreciates the hp love!
miss tukru:i just wanted to go to the halloween feast and not slay a fucking troll in the girls bathroom
frl.zucker: yeah now my wand is full of slime!
        (bwahaha)
miss tukru:i told some people at work about how i went to see prisoner of azkaban with my manics (&potter) fan friends from home in the cinema (in leicester square) dressed as a slytherin
        sonja borrowed me a spare tie
        they thought i was a total nerd
        and cos i took draco & neville & luna with me to see half blood prince
        i still have my cauldron!
frl.zucker: haha yeah everyone here also thinks it's so weird how nerdy i am about hp!
        i don't even think i know that much
        there's lots of details i do not know!
miss tukru:me neither
        just cos i've listened to all the audio books about five times in the past six months....
        except order of the phoenix, i've lost it
frl.zucker: yeah same here! i'm obsessively listening to them since i was 13 or something
        my dad always says i cant even go to sleep without them anymore
miss tukru:i've been listening to them in bed.
frl.zucker: nobody gets us ^_^
miss tukru:i keep falling asleep
frl.zucker: yeah same!!
miss tukru:and then the battery runs out and i cant remember where i left off.
frl.zucker: OH NO
miss tukru:ive only got one chapter left of half blood prince again :(
        i think i needs the box set
        need a spare £250 or something
        ouch
frl.zucker: BOOO WHAT!!!
        i don't even have that much in my vault
miss tukru:only a couple of galleons
        none of this muggle money
        i just do not understand it!
        these weird paper things
        what ever happened to MASSIVE gold coins
frl.zucker: they have this funny pictures on them too! it's really weird, why would you pay things with PAPER
miss tukru:maybe i should READ order of the phoenix. old school. though i keep missing details when i read read :( i pay way more attention to lovely stephen fry <3
        and the pictures don't even move! what's the point!
frl.zucker: i started re-reading the books too just a week ago!!
        it's so different
        i love it though <3
        but stephen is awesome too
miss tukru:i is well bad at reading.
frl.zucker: i wanna do a harry potter cover redesign, thats why i'm re-reading
miss tukru:and besides i can't read and do the dishes or cook at the same time!
frl.zucker: haha <3
        maybe you could learn that spell from molly where the dishes wash themselves?
        you ask her?
        you should ask her i mean
miss tukru:i totes should


miss tukru:i kinda want harry the history
frl.zucker: like from other countries for example!
miss tukru:and i think i totes need tales of beedle the bard
frl.zucker: yeah i want all those books about hp too
        OH YES!
        MUST HAVE
miss tukru:i dont know why i dont have it already. i almost pre-ordered it.
        and then i didnt even buy it at all.
        wtf is wrong with me?
        i should get mum to get me all the books in finnish!
        in finnish voldemort's name isn't tom riddle, its tom valedro
frl.zucker: oh really???
        in german it's tom vorlost riddle
miss tukru:yep
        im not sure if he had a middle name in finnish
        google will tell me
frl.zucker: i dont get why they change the name?
        i mean its really important!
miss tukru:Tom Lomen Valedro
frl.zucker: haha funny
miss tukru:cos it has to be an anagram
        tom marvolo riddle = i am lord voldemort
        tom lomen valedro = ma olen voldemort
        and so on
        remember, chamber of secrets
frl.zucker: yes i do, but
        hm
        i dont get it sill!
        still!
        i mean in german at least it makes no sense why they changed it
        oh
        wait
        i think my brain is slow :D
miss tukru:i wouldnt be able to say, my german is bad
frl.zucker: but you do SPEAK german!!!
        say something!!
miss tukru:i did study if for two years, but it's mainly gone
        ich habe sauerkraut in meine lederhosen?
frl.zucker: hihihi :D
miss tukru:oh but i must go
        the highlight of my telly week is on!
frl.zucker: ok go to bed! we will meet at the great hall tomorrow!!
miss tukru:aka russell howard's good news
frl.zucker: oh i mean to the tv :D
miss tukru:i love him so.
        HE MAKES HARRY POTTER JOKES!
        anyway,
frl.zucker: AWESOME <3
miss tukru:i'll be back in 30 minutes if youre still in the library
        x
frl.zucker: yeah probably!
        x

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FROM COMMENTS IN FRL.ZUCKER's BLOG, HERE

tukru loves you said...

that's what i wanna do!

i may have to do my own version of this drawing.

i was gutted the other day when i realised there is no one in hogwarts i could easily be for halloween. no witches with a black bob & glasses. boo! you'd think we'd be plentiful. i guess i could always just be harriet potter. i have been called harry potter several times by random children, especially when i had short boy hair.

waay random rant.

(fuck this, i'm gonna go work for weasley's wizard wheezes. sort out their online orders!)

frl.zucker said...

you should tell yr boss if he's shit talking you again, ha! :D

you could be tonks! anyone could be her really. but yes, harriet potter is perfect. <3>

tukru loves you said...

i think it everytime i get annoyed at work. which is A LOT.

yes! i shall be tonks! i don't like movie tonks anyway, she's not at all like she's in my head. actually, she's more like me in my head. ha. just the problem of the glasses though :( i shall forever remain harriet potter (sigh)

damn, i forgot about the weird sisters! i could be their penny smith or something!

frl.zucker said...

we should totally be the weird sisters manager team. <3>

tukru loves you said...

hell yeah! the movie weird sisters, right? if they were real, they would be the GREATEST BAND EVAR.

yeah, movie tonks is rubbish weird, not awesome weird like she should be. (cos she is a bit weird..) maybe i should get temporary contact lenses just for being tonks.

frl.zucker said...

i don't care which weird sisters, i love both books and movie weird sisters! i also loveeee: the holyhead harpies!! gwenog <333>

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yeah, we're just THAT cool & awesome.

ODD GIRL OUT

source (strange sisters)

i watched yet another documentary about weed with carl last night and they said something about anti-depressants that made me think about my medication. "how many of these people have a chemical inbalance and how many are just getting over a bad breakup?" or something along the lines. it's been clear to me for a while (sort of) that really, my problem is my job, not a chemical imbalance in the brain. and medication probably won't help, because it's not making the problem go away. yet i'm too pathetic to really look for another job. i make feeble attempts every once and a while but.. i just hate the process of job hunting so much. i'm no good at it. i'm no good at cvs and covering letters and application forms. meh.

today was quite nice. he wasn't there. which was good, since i was late as usual. my bed is too comfy, carl's too warm and nice and toasty and cuddly, i just cannot get out of bed. and eating breakfast is a chore. but i need my breakfast, i have to eat it. i hate my morning gagging. i'm trying to cut down on dairy, i had an etsy message from someone who orders my zines quite often a while ago, they'd read about my troubles here or in #8 (i can't remember whether i wrote about it in there or on the blog or both) and she told me she'd had the same problem and cutting out dairy (particularly yoghurt and cheese) had helped. now, i can't not eat cheese, i like cheese too much, but i guess i can stop carving away half of the parmesan while cooking.. and just not eat it as much. unfortunately my breakfast usually consists of toast or cereal and a yoghurt and my midmorning snack on my tea/fag break is usually a yoghurt too. today i managed to not eat a single yoghurt. i had toast + 2 kiwi fruits for breakfast and kiwi fruit + banana for snack. go me. i think i'm going to try to keep this up, see if it helps. cos the gagging's got almost worse since i was ill. i'm almost sick in my mouth several times in the morning. it really puts me off a) breakfast and b) leaving the house. like i need another thing putting me off the idea of going to work..

the distro has started off quite well, six orders already! i was going to send carl to the post office tomorrow, but unfortunately he's at oxfam all day, so they'll be sent out thursday instead. it's making me really happy! i know it's only been open for what, three days but.. it's really making me feel good about stuff. everyone's been really nice and supportive, bunch of my friends have been giving shout outs for it on their blogs & twitters (thank you!) i want more zines. i've made a little zine wish list for the distro, but carl's sensibly suggested that we're sensible and don't go buying loads of new stock quite yet. but i'm itching! i guess we'll be packing orders tomorrow. half the presents are gone! get in quick if you want 'em.

you reckon this counts as 10 minutes of writing for this? i can't actually join the comm because i found out about it sunday and i guess they closed the membership saturday night or something. poop. doesn't stop me doing it on my own though, does it? i was going to try to write some fiction tonight but it just hasn't happened. actually i was going to watch telly today and not be on the computer because there was a bunch of good stuff on, for once (eastenders, james may's toy thingie, f word and it's just a theory) but i've only managed to watch half of enders sitting on the sofa, facing the telly. might get off my seat after i finish writing this and watch the rest of it's only a theory in a similar fashion. we'll see.