TYPICAL GRRLS ARE SO CONFUSING!

i've got a whole lot of stuff to write about but the most important first / for now:

the other day (tuesday) me and emma went to poco loco to ask if we could have the little riot grrl type club night we'd been thinking about for the past month or so (secretly, i didn't wanna say anything til stuff was actually happening) and they said yes! it's happening NEXT THURSDAY. it's a bit soon but it was the best week in february to do it, and we wanted to get started / make it happen ASAP. emma's left a load of flyers in some local establishments and we're going to the art college tomorrow afternoon to do some more flyering. there's also a facebook page, twitter and a tumblr of good things. add us for news and stuff!

typical grrls is a grrrl / genderqueer friendly club night in chatham with an all grrl (fronted) playlist, cupcakes and zines.

THURSDAY 3rd FEBRUARY 2010, 8pm - 1am
at Poco Loco, 58 High Street, Chatham

FREE ENTRY!

...FREE (DELICIOUS VEGAN) CAKE & ZINES FOR ALL!
(We're good to you, you can't deny it)

Zine stall from Vampire Sushi Zine Distro
All round excitingness in every corner

Emma & Tukru DJing this time.

(boys are welcome too, unless you're going to be a sexist dickhead)

Riot Grrl, Motown, Electronica and Pop Playlist includes:

Aislers Set, the B-52s, Best Coast, Beyonce, Bikini Kill, Björk, Bratmobile, the Breeders, Cat Power, Deerhoof, Elastica, Free Kitten, the Gossip, PJ Harvey, Hole, Huggy Bear, L7, Lady Gaga (Tukru likes her, alright?), the Knife, Le Tigre, Nancy Sinatra, Peaches, the Ronettes, Scout Niblett, Sleater-Kinney, the Slits, the Shangri-las, Sonic Youth (Kim's bits) the Supremes, the Raincoats, the Runaways, Velvet Underground (Mo & Nico's bits), Warpaint, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, X-ray Spex & Much Much More

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in other news, i've been working on my split zine with catherine of here. in my head, and i have been back to derby, twice! just haven't got around to writing about it. oh well. also, my brother's coming round for a visit with his lady friend who i've never met and don't even know what she looks like on sunday for a couple of days and our flat is a tip so tomorrow is being dedicated to tidying. other than that trip to town with emma of course. busy bee, for now. the i've got to finish the zine and print it in time for the brighton zine fest (19th-20th feb) celebrate carl's birthday and make him epic cupcake and so much more. it's nice being busy, but it's also fucking exhausting.

I HAVE THE BEST EVER BOYFRIEND.

today carl came home from oxfam with a motherfucking film scanner! i love that boy, and i love that place (they’re not allowed to sell electrical goods donations anyway..) it’s not brilliant (colours come out a bit wonky a lot of times..) but it works! this might just be the perfect excuse for me to get a new battery in my old film SLR and start taking REAL PHOTOS again. film just wins over digital at feel and texture and colour and stuff.

also, i have a bunch of stuff i haven’t got scanned anywhere anymore. you should see my fucking neg folder. i've been playing with my new toy a little...

i'll talk about shit another day.

KENT ROLLER GIRLS

i went to kent roller girls practice on sunday because a) it was in rochester (usual place in herne bay booked up for roller hockey or something) and in the afternoon rather than crack of dawn and b) we had a meeting about important stuff at alex' house beforehand. i made some tiny vegan cupcakes and most of them were eaten, even though they don't go with the roller derby work out meal plan.. then again, that didn't start til yesterday! i'd do it but.. a) i'm lazy and b) my wrist is still a wee bit too weak to trust me with any exercise that requires me to rest on my arm/hand strenght, and there's a fair bit of press ups and planks in that workout. maybe next time?

i was watching the others skate and i almost cried cos i wanted to skate so much too. (fuck almost, there was definitely a solitary emo tear rolling down my cheek as everyone else warmed up.) i've got a check up with the doctor next monday, if he says it's cool, i'll be back on skates the sunday after that! anyway, i took some pictures.

1 / 52 WEEKS

week 1 - derby girls, originally uploaded by Tukru Loves You.

at some point last year i decided to start one of those 365 projects where you take a photograph every day. i think i lasted about a week and a half before i got bored and ran out of ideas / motivations. i guess at least one photo everyday was a little too ambitious for me. so i've decided to do one picture i am happy with each week for the next 52 weeks.

NEW YEAR, 'NEW' GOALS.

i was going to write a proper entry with my resolutions / goals / whatever for this year, but to be honest, they are more or less the same as last year. still working on stuff.

♥ write more. zines, stories, letters, blog entries. in both languages.
♥ spend less time on the internet doing fuck all.
♥ eat less frozen crap and more proper food.
♥ finish issue one of THE QUEEN IS FED, my cooking zine.
♥ be more sociable, get out more, see people, hang the fuck out with awesome locals etc etc instead of just sitting home on tumblr, even if carl doesn't want to come along.
♥ knit more, especially finish knitting the blue cardigan with hood / vintage bed jacket that i started knitting on christmas eve. i've done the back so far and i'm about 1/3rd through right front piece, like so:

♥ make more art. take real proper photographs, not just snaps of crap around the house / what i'm wearing. it's a waste of a good camera. even use the film slr again.
♥ find that new job i keep talking about. preferably not in retail, and preferably more money for less hours!
♥ go abroad. and preferably not just to go home.
♥ see the ark one more fucking time before it's too late.
♥ get better mental health.
♥ be a better girlfriend, as per usual.
♥ make that secret exciting project i can't tell you about yet actually happen.
♥ start a grrrl band. (a girl can dream, right?)
♥ finally get that first tattoo i keep banging on about.
♥ skate hard at roller derby and pass minimum skills.
♥ radically reduce my use of oppressive / ableist language (like crazy, mental, special..)
♥ reply to every single letter i get. even if it's just a post card saying "aww shucks." or something equally feeble.

i think that's it for now. still not making a resolution to stop smoking though. i'm going to get off the internet now and watch bruce parry hang out with shamans and knit knit knit. how i've missed that man.

SOME OF MY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS.

i've come to the conclusion xmas 2010 was the year of the cupcake, while 2009 was year of the kitty cats. i'd been sort of secretly hoping for someone might get me the cupcake maker and / or the massive cupcake mould, and i got them both. i've tested the cupcake maker already and it's pretty cool.

THE OBLIGATORY REVIEW OF THE YEAR POST.

some of the HIGHLIGHTS of 2010 in the world of tukru:

♥ DJing at girl germs, twice!
♥ zine fests including: brighton zine fest, london zine symposium & birmingham zine fest.
♥ writing 4 new zines & doing my first compilation zine!
♥ still doing vampire sushi after one year in business.
♥ starting roller derby and getting hang of skating pretty quick!

& some of the LOWLIGHTS of 2010 in the world of tukru:

- carl's dad went into the hospital only to come out very briefly and then go back again and never come out. i was there with carl's family when he passed away, it was really damn upsetting & unfair cos he was pretty young, and damn awesome dude. (read your pretty face #13 if you wanna know more)
- i fractured my wrist in 3 places and ended up being on sick leave for six weeks due to which i'm broke as fuck, overdrawn to the max and owe rent.

sure, the highlights list is longer than the lowlights but the lowlights were pretty much so craptacular they outweigh all the / any good stuff that happened. 2010 was a shit year. i want a fucking refund.

what about my resolutions for 2010, how did i do with them?

♥ write more in finnish - well, i started my finnish blog and then completely abandoned it after a few months. but i did start hipster mummot with sinikka a few weeks ago. so.. i guess i didn't really do that.
♥ write more in general - i managed to do 4 issues of your pretty face in six months. i guess that's writing more. but i was sort of hoping to do some fiction too.
♥ spend less time on the internet doing fuck all - no.
♥ eat less frozen crap and more PROPER food. - well. yeah. sort of.
♥ stop ignoring stuff and pushing it til later. or at least do it less. - doing a little better on this!
♥ worry less. - and this!
♥ be more crafty, knit and stuff. - most of the year, not really but lately yes!
♥ work on my teenage blah blah novel & my smiths fan vampire story. - no. still stuck as fuck. have manage to figure out plot for vampire story though, so i guess that's something.
♥ make a fucking brilliant queer/typical zinester stuff issue of YOUR PRETTY FACE without rushing it. if it's not ready in time for a zinefest, it's not. - well, life got in the way by giving me other things to write about so i haven't made this. but i didn't rush with the zines i did make (except maybe little with #12..) so i think i did pretty good.
♥ same thing with rocknroll adventures of past times issue. - see above
♥ finish issue one of THE QUEEN IS FED, my cooking zine. preferably in time for brighton zine fest (end of february) - well no. i still haven't done much about this zine. i've got a BIG list of recipes i can put it i just can't get myself to do it for some bizarro reason. need to fact check all the recipies too. but i'll start on that.. tomorrow?
♥ dress better (when i look good, i feel better. like today. i may be a bit chilly, but i feel better about myself. it's funny that.) - well. i guess?
♥ see people more often. go to coffees or just to hang out at lovely people's houses. - i've been more social. but mostly cos emma's been around.
♥ make more art. take PROPER photographs. - FAIL.
♥ get winifred's hair sorted out! (i actually only just added this one..) - FAIL FAIL FAIL i don't even know where her damn hair is.
♥ be more / proper organized with distro etc business stuff. - check! to a degree. there's still room for improvement of course!
♥ find another job. preferably not in retail. i don't want to hate christmas anymore. - well, obviously haven't managed that. but i came pretty close and i did manage to not hate christmas this year thanks to sharing work with my replacement.
♥ have better mental health - i would have done a lot better on this if 2010 hadn't served me such a shit sandwich.
♥ be a better girlfriend and be more comfortable with my own sexuality. - still working on this but getting there. SLOWLY.

oh and from that 'wish list' of things it would be cool if i could do this year, i accomplished fuck all. but i'm cool with that. i'll hold on to my list of new resolutions / goals for tomorrow / another day.